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“Confidence is not what we’ve been told it is. Despite everything we’ve been told, confidence does not come from the experience of winning. True confidence comes from knowing you can give your absolute best effort in any given moment. Wheelhouse workout? Hell yeah. Workout full of weaknesses? Let’s f*ckin go. Never done this before in your life? I’ll figure it out. Confidence is being in complete control of how you respond to your circumstances, no matter what’s thrown at you. Do your circumstances influence your attitude and effort? Or can you perform to your potential anytime, anywhere, on any playing field? That’s confidence. And it’s a superpower.” - Christine Bald, CompTrain1 I read this blog that Ben Bergeron and his team put out after the first workout of The Open was released. The story was focused on Katrin Davisdottir and Brooke Wells going after their second attempt of 20.1. The post talked about their mindset of heading into the first redo of the season, mentioning ...

Growing up my mom said that all I ever wanted to do was watch Disney movies. From every single one of the princesses to The Lion King, I was a kid addicted to watching these movies. She said I would watch The Lion King over and over and over again. If I was home, that's what was playing on the tv. 20 some odd years later, I'm still a huge movie person, but I really started to think of why I have this emotional attachment to these movies. Why as a child was I just so smitten with watching these animated characters conquer their biggest life challenges? And then I figured it out. I wanted to be like them. It may come as a shock to some of you, but I do have issues dealing with anxiety. I know a lot of it stems from inside my own brain and self talk, rant for a different time, but over this past weekend I started to really dig down deep to figure out the root of the problem. Much of my anxiety is linked back to this idea that I am not all that I can be, that there has to be s...

There are very few things in life that can make us stop in our tracks. That make our hearts drop into our stomachs. That make tears slowly fall from our eyes. One is love. The other is fear. In today’s world, fear seems to play a major role in our lives. We are afraid to move away from our hometowns. We’re afraid to try something new for fear of embarrassment. We are afraid to chase after our true potential. We are afraid to allow ourselves to become all that we are meant to be. “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness That most frightens us. We ask ourselves Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small Does not serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking So that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, ...

Have you ever felt something so strongly, that you could no longer deny that the feeling was there? Maybe it was when you met the love of your life. Maybe it was when you bought that house in a new town, where you had to make new friends. Maybe it was when you realized you’re exactly where you’re supposed to be. But what if that same gut feeling was telling you that it was time to leave your job, would you listen? Its been 5 months since I decided to listen to my gut feeling, my body’s energy, and decided to leave my full-time job. It was one of the hardest decisions I’ve ever had to make. At 25 years old I already had this feeling of it being impossible to restart my life. At 25. Most of you reading this would say my life had just started, of course I can do a re-do! But in all honesty, nowadays if you’re not well into your career by 23, people start to question what it is you’re doing with your life. At 21, you’re supposed to know who you are, what you want your career to b...

“Comparison is the thief of joy.” It’s funny to think about that phrase. I read it and say to myself, there are no truer words than those. But then it happens. I fall right back into that mental self-talk that is just not the greatest for me to hear. It’s a never-ending process of talking to myself then talking myself out of talking to myself this way, because I know it’s not good for me, right? What benefit could I possibly have from telling myself, “you’re still not on their level”, “you need to start training harder to catch up”, “why am I not better at this stuff? She just started!!”. Comparison is the thief of joy. For those that don’t know, I’ve been in the CrossFit game a little while. I started at the ripe age of 21, March 2014. Like many of us I found CrossFit somewhat accidentally and immediately fell in love with it. I was a varsity softball player in high school, played intramurals in college, and just fell off being physically active. When I was challenged to try ...

It's amazing what self reflection can do. Some days I look at my life and compare it to others and get envious. I see people out, having a grand old time, while I'm working my ass off to write 3 papers, get to work on time, keep my energy up for my second job, and try to be asleep by 10pm on a regular basis. I get jealous watching these insta stories thinking why don't I go out and have fun? Why can't I do that?  But then I think, why do you really even want to do that? So you can post a cool story? To show the world that you're cool and can have fun? Bitch, we aint in high school any more! LET. IT. GO. There is no need to compare to others, because let's be honest, life has shown us that beyond the instagram posts and facebook statuses we're all struggling with something a little deeper inside.  As I'm sure you've seen, May is mental health awareness month. I figured what better time to bring back my love for blogging and telling my own battl...