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It's amazing what self reflection can do. Some days I look at my life and compare it to others and get envious. I see people out, having a grand old time, while I'm working my ass off to write 3 papers, get to work on time, keep my energy up for my second job, and try to be asleep by 10pm on a regular basis. I get jealous watching these insta stories thinking why don't I go out and have fun? Why can't I do that?

But then I think, why do you really even want to do that? So you can post a cool story? To show the world that you're cool and can have fun? Bitch, we aint in high school any more! LET. IT. GO. There is no need to compare to others, because let's be honest, life has shown us that beyond the instagram posts and facebook statuses we're all struggling with something a little deeper inside.

As I'm sure you've seen, May is mental health awareness month. I figured what better time to bring back my love for blogging and telling my own battle of mental health. But that's not necessarily what I want to talk about just yet. Right now, I want that self reflection to come back into the forefront of your mind. I want you to sit and reflect on your life. Seriously. Take 2 minutes to just think about your life, the good , the bad, and the ugly.

What should start to become apparent is that we're all going through shit. We've all lost people, we've all had our hearts broken, our trust shattered and our bodies shook. We have cried real tears, sobbed so hard it hurts to breathe, and dreamed of things we never even want to talk about. The pain is real. The situation is real. We are real. In this moment in time, we are it. We have made the choice to pick ourselves up because we are strong people. We have made the decision that today I will live my life, not only for those who are gone but for ourselves. Why?

Because we owe it to ourselves.

People will try and tell you the right way to live your life. They will try to guide you as best they can, sometimes being blinded by their own past they don't realize what they are truly guiding you to. Today, you need to be your own beacon. Today you need to step up and decide what kind of day, month, year, or life you want to have. If you don't decide what you want out of life, it sure as shit is going to decide for you, and without mercy.

You are the master of your fate. You are the captain of your soul. There is a whole lot of life left to live my friends and you are only dishonoring yourself if you don't take it and run.

Time waits for no one. So neither should you.

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