But you already know

It's amazing what self reflection can do. Some days I look at my life and compare it to others and get envious. I see people out, having a grand old time, while I'm working my ass off to write 3 papers, get to work on time, keep my energy up for my second job, and try to be asleep by 10pm on a regular basis. I get jealous watching these insta stories thinking why don't I go out and have fun? Why can't I do that?

But then I think, why do you really even want to do that? So you can post a cool story? To show the world that you're cool and can have fun? Bitch, we aint in high school any more! LET. IT. GO. There is no need to compare to others, because let's be honest, life has shown us that beyond the instagram posts and facebook statuses we're all struggling with something a little deeper inside.

As I'm sure you've seen, May is mental health awareness month. I figured what better time to bring back my love for blogging and telling my own battle of mental health. But that's not necessarily what I want to talk about just yet. Right now, I want that self reflection to come back into the forefront of your mind. I want you to sit and reflect on your life. Seriously. Take 2 minutes to just think about your life, the good , the bad, and the ugly.

What should start to become apparent is that we're all going through shit. We've all lost people, we've all had our hearts broken, our trust shattered and our bodies shook. We have cried real tears, sobbed so hard it hurts to breathe, and dreamed of things we never even want to talk about. The pain is real. The situation is real. We are real. In this moment in time, we are it. We have made the choice to pick ourselves up because we are strong people. We have made the decision that today I will live my life, not only for those who are gone but for ourselves. Why?

Because we owe it to ourselves.

People will try and tell you the right way to live your life. They will try to guide you as best they can, sometimes being blinded by their own past they don't realize what they are truly guiding you to. Today, you need to be your own beacon. Today you need to step up and decide what kind of day, month, year, or life you want to have. If you don't decide what you want out of life, it sure as shit is going to decide for you, and without mercy.

You are the master of your fate. You are the captain of your soul. There is a whole lot of life left to live my friends and you are only dishonoring yourself if you don't take it and run.

Time waits for no one. So neither should you.

Comments

It's What's in Between your Ears that Matters

“Confidence is not what we’ve been told it is. Despite everything we’ve been told, confidence does not come from the experience of winning. True confidence comes from knowing you can give your absolute best effort in any given moment. Wheelhouse workout? Hell yeah. Workout full of weaknesses? Let’s f*ckin go. Never done this before in your life? I’ll figure it out. Confidence is being in complete control of how you respond to your circumstances, no matter what’s thrown at you. Do your circumstances influence your attitude and effort? Or can you perform to your potential anytime, anywhere, on any playing field? That’s confidence. And it’s a superpower.” - Christine Bald, CompTrain1 I read this blog that Ben Bergeron and his team put out after the first workout of The Open was released. The story was focused on Katrin Davisdottir and Brooke Wells going after their second attempt of 20.1. The post talked about their mindset of heading into the first redo of the season, mentioning ...

Try. Then try again.

There are very few things in life that can make us stop in our tracks. That make our hearts drop into our stomachs. That make tears slowly fall from our eyes. One is love. The other is fear. In today’s world, fear seems to play a major role in our lives. We are afraid to move away from our hometowns. We’re afraid to try something new for fear of embarrassment. We are afraid to chase after our true potential. We are afraid to allow ourselves to become all that we are meant to be. “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness That most frightens us. We ask ourselves Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small Does not serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking So that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, ...

Change the world. I dare you.

Growing up my mom said that all I ever wanted to do was watch Disney movies. From every single one of the princesses to The Lion King, I was a kid addicted to watching these movies. She said I would watch The Lion King over and over and over again. If I was home, that's what was playing on the tv. 20 some odd years later, I'm still a huge movie person, but I really started to think of why I have this emotional attachment to these movies. Why as a child was I just so smitten with watching these animated characters conquer their biggest life challenges? And then I figured it out. I wanted to be like them. It may come as a shock to some of you, but I do have issues dealing with anxiety. I know a lot of it stems from inside my own brain and self talk, rant for a different time, but over this past weekend I started to really dig down deep to figure out the root of the problem. Much of my anxiety is linked back to this idea that I am not all that I can be, that there has to be s...

Read That Again

Search This Blog